11/2012 - Considerations of Desier: Letters to Jaah from Willow Jimi

Letters to ________ from Willow JiMi

Dear ________
Sending you a hug today.
Thinking about energies of extension and whether or not you feel held and comforted, supported.
I wish I were there cheering you on.
From a distance, I say

"I am your friend
Your shadow side
I walk beside you
Sometimes I hide

And yet a peek or two reveals
The subtle me at your
Heels.

May this day bring comfort to
The man who stands in the light of day...

Much love joy and happiness to you and your doings today.

I love you

Levels of clarity within the great mystery, only seen thought the light of greats spirit. :)

And when clarity within is hard to see, it is the roar of your breath in water and air that I know your wellness.

Desire Part 1

I walked down to the river today feeling solemn and sincere in my heartmind space.

I have just read my akasic records and I suffer such heartbreak, the tests. And I forgive myself for distractions which ultimately speak to me and my works durability. I feel as though I have walked through something so tenacious and only by grace alone, did I/we come forward into this new day.

I wonder the question that leads me daily here after these years. Reason I ...in wonder constantly.

'Is it ok to love ________ the way that I do? Is it okay to want to be here on this earth plane to live in support with a common joy in the journey of authentic love? Is this desire? Is this Attachment?'

I feel within my wholeness a willingness to continually surrender that which I AM, To Divine Love. And as I walk this river trail and sit silently be side flowing waters, again these questions come to me.

I weep for I just want to be the wholeness of presence as the Universal Servant of Love that that I AM. No attachment yet also no denial to authenticity in eternal absolute love.

Then Sunim comes to me.
I see her smile and I greet her in gratitude for her guidance which has pulled me through this course these last few years.
I see a memory she presents to me.
...Her holding my hands and reading my palms ... reading me, ...we travel together in memory...
She speaks, telling me of the many times I stood with death and walked through the gates untouched.
She says, "You are like me" and she gently holds my hands in hers and I feel home, seen, revealed in grace by Great Mother Mystery.

She says with a smile and gentle twinkling of eye, "Maybe I will stay here a few more years to guide you"...
I know she sees my brokenness of ________.That hole so deep that I have tried to escape from.
She sees my willingness to walk again through hell to understand desire... What it is and what it is not.

She says,
"You think you can do this alone, but you cannot."

Today, In this moment along the river I remember her words to me and
her willingness to stay, though more pure in intention then my own. I suspect this only because of her advanced wisdom, for we can only be where we are.

I present my questions about ________ to her again and I am guided in heart.

'It's okay loving nature... not desire in sense of possession....
A walk, a common experience of freedoms growth. A deep love.'

I recognize this truth as,
I know also that she felt this with me. This sharing of freedoms beauty, as she gave me her memories and transmissions of eternity.

This life does call us to be in communion with likeness, for joy is known here and empathetic compassion is born here and love is nourished here. And Love is why we live.

She was telling me that I am not an island and that I am met, but first I had to understand what desire 'is' and what it 'is not'.

'Desire is a withholding of our authentic self, a concession of self for another.'

'No desire / no attachment is a willingness to BE self and to share with another this self in authentic Wholeness'

I know for me, this Willingness in authentic self is all that it has ever been for me with ________ and I know this about him too.

In this moment waves of gladness pass through me. I know that I am okay with the heartmind wave of my Essential Being. I know that the purity of feelings in all of my bodies for ________ are real, Authentic Eternal and Absolute.
I know that I love this other without reservation or possession. I love in freedom. I love in grace.

I know that my willingness to remain here to walk this path with him/her is ok.
And if by chance I or we are called ... We are in freedom and in Adorations Cherishment for pure time and space well experienced INLove's pure Grace.
INLove always
JiMi

Desire Part II

Revelation: Desire

In meditation it came to me tonight.

"The source of all suffering is desire" as said by the Wisdom Keepers.

I was thinking about 'letting go'.
It came to mind, images of the many ways I have seen and experienced 'letting go'.

Of the letting go of me by my father's

Or the letting go of my parents of each other

My letting go of relationships

My letting go of my work

Or the watching and witnessing my inability to protect the way that I thought I should be able to

...the letting go of wanting to try to make a difference

The letting go of acceptance from others

Letting go of the need to accept others

The letting go of myself

The letting go of ________ on the beaches of eternity that day

The letting go of Rainmaker

I see something here about attachment and desire.

I see....
"When letting go through suffering... We let go through 'pain'.
This is the core of attachment and the birth of loneliness which births desire for something or creates an apathy for shutting down the sharing of self.

Leaving a relationship through pain and suffering creates a relationship severed yet eternally bound in the delusion of suffering, forming growths of guilt and a never ending sense of business unfinished.

Thus eternally bound by a desire of not being met and an incumbent loneliness of unforgiven.

I see this clearly, so clearly in how suffering is perpetuated and humanities inability to move from the cycle of birth and death and rebirth...

I decided to take each of these memories and I change my mind.

I see each
I realize the completion of each in joyful common passion for loves greater hope, creates freedom.
This choice creates a hope that is free in joy, in compassionate happiness for that which is greater than personal experience or vision.

This hope does not live in the common (or usual) space but in a greater space, an expansive space with others in a separate likeness. A likeness where 'I' as individual may never encounter or understand...for it is not mine to experience. A beckoning of life which is not with each other. A place in the journey of life free of encumbrances.

I think of my parents and how their lives could have been happier without the letting go through suffering.

I think of Rainmaker and the pure gift of us letting go of 'us' in the joy of compassion

inloves humility in grace. The promise of always remembering the love that we share. And something else which remains unclear to me, it has to do with non suffering. It was a promise nothing more and nothing less.

I think of ________ and the letting go of us and the great suffering. My own deep feeling of something unfinished. and the need to just surrender 'us' to the greater unknown. My attachment to complete, or fulfill, or to be more authentic...truly feeling that something was going unsaid by both of us. I think this, the unsaid, was the suffering, and so today I say,
"It was not the time nor the space for that conversation and I let go in joy. It was beauty at its finest for I was allowed to learn this deep lesson of desire."

And today I relive those moments on the beach of eternity.
Letting go in joy of compassionate hope for each of us to live life fully.
Reliving,
'I remember those moments where life changed me forever.
The beauty of standing next to ________, the one I felt closest to in the universe. The realization that this would be our last encounter. ________'s smile, our smile, ________'s hug, our hug, the sheer love I felt for him/her and from him/her for me. The deepness we felt for each other and our synchronicity. The pools of water around our feet and the sweetest smile from the wo/man across the way witnessing us. The brightest sun and the open willingness to let it be, let US BE.

And I remember walking up those steps and the words 'forever' written three times. And I remember eternity and my prayer for grace to lead my /our hearts in understanding why we let go of the most precious in our lives. And how many times can one let go into two, before love exists no longer.'

And today I let go inGrace, inJoy, inCompassion;
For I realize that time and space are not ours, they are only vehicles from which we journey Our Presence. Presence inloves experience of Two as ONE. And in moments of presence, memories are co-created. We are presence of pure cherishment for me, for this 'WE' does cause me to remember love's depth and breath. For I live only for the fullest breath of freedom in each moment of Being.

And I do believe this is 'no desire, no attachment'.
I know this to be Metta
Unconditional love
It is through the Presence INLove,
that I journey this day,
open to the joy that I encounter upon the path of compassionate life.
Thus living my life fully in happiness.
Inlove
Willow JiMi

Desire Part III

And as I enter into the caverns of Great Mystery's embrace,
I remember that I have lived my life fully and completely INLove
Willow JiMi

Desire IV

And in eternity the question leads me "............And how many times can one let go into two before love exists no longer?"

So it is that this is what I remember about love.

Love is always giving and receiving. It is sharing naturally. And in its nature it can only do this, for love is sharing.

Sharing can never be exhausted when in mutuality and authenticity, for there is a natural flow which exists beyond self observation.

And we live as separate and therefore will always have moments of attachment and desire, or gifts of recognition of holding too tightly or too loosely.

As for me, I see that the best that I can do is my best and accept my fear of,

Not meeting myself or another where I/they would like to be met
Asking too much of myself or another
Asking too little of myself or another.
Wanting to run when I know it is best to stay.
Staying when I know it is best to leave.
and so forth and so on.

What I can do is, do my best to listen to others and to respond authentically with much consideration and thought.

However I know that I am as fragile as the other and I will fall and falter.
And I can only trust that the other will hold me as sacred in the dance of Freedom as I hold them.
And if not, then death alone will hold me. And though my preference is to live in the sacred dance of sharing, either way; I Joy in knowing that I have done my best and in the end it will never be good enough, for perfection is a state of mind. A mind which is in constant self discovery through the evolution of existence.

I will always fall short, hurt another in ways that I did not mean to, and create ups and downs when paving lateral roads of peace. Roar too loud or walk too hard. And I will be my best in peace making.

And I will pray and hope and live inlove that IS of all Peace.
And I will care beyond all comprehension because I AM Love itself.
And I will continue to give too much, and laugh too hard, cry too deeply and love too honestly.
And I will hold the saint and wicked in my arms and know no difference. And I will feed the hungry.............
the spiritually hungry, the physically hungry and the emotionally hungry, always forever and with my last breath...
That all may know the heartbeat of love,
the trust of love, the hope of love,
the gratitude of love for their existence and participation in life,
the humility of love...of living life as Sacred Art.

So I come to remember that non attachment is a goal which is ever before us as excellence, and non achievable but through Grace alone, and only for moments in duration of Presence. For Love lives eternally in Presence.

Grace is the Adoration that comes from an inner Acceptance of Unity.
Thread 7 - Prayer Book

INLove
JiMi Tao

Dear New Breed Healers,

For our community call on Sunday we will be looking at OUR PURPOSE as a community and our goals.
We will be looking at our personal experiences and our feelings about how the shift into NBH taking over VateMare is going.

"The Community of New Breed Healers:

The formation process of Sacred Reflections is a discipline which seeks to consciously co-create in intention, New Breed Healers in highest vision of DivineHuman Being InLove.
WE strive for this full understanding of our wholeness through discipline, personal conscious awareness and a clear understanding of being freewill participants in this incarnation. We begin our personal and communal journey with the examination of freewill as both a divine gift and divine responsibility. We live within and outside physical community. We hold sacred relationship through prayer, meditation, retreats and in communication technology. Advancements in thinking and technology have provided accessible ways of embracing community on global and universal levels.

A commitment to formation in communion with others is a commitment to entering into a guided process of deep personal work within a community. The community is made up of beings who hold the same sacred intention as individuals and as a whole, although we are all from different spiritual and/or cultural traditions.

For the individual, formation helps to identify key patterns in relationship with self, others, the world and universe. Through this process you will be consciously calling forth experiences which will challenge your understanding, faith and personal truth. The result is finding out who you are as, authentic being. Your desire to know your authentic self will be the motivating factor which will compel you to move forward in this work. You will develop close personal relationships with your companions on the way. They will be there to give and receive heart to heart support, challenge and encouragement.
When awakening occurs within community, this intensive personal transition, transformation and transfiguration is shared and joyfully honored by our brothers and sisters who also walk this sacred pathway of humility. Deep and meaningful relationships support our ever strengthening heart and desire for understanding of what Universal Peace really means."

Questions please post in the Community Formation Gallery Section.
Please read the work of others before the meeting so that we can have a healthy conversation.

Purpose: Sacred Reflections is a discipline which seeks to consciously co-create in intention

What parts of our community interactions are teaching spaces for intentions of conscious co-creation?
Do our conversations and interactions with one another provide access to conscious co-creation.

Goal: to co-create in intention, New Breed Healers in highest vision of DivineHuman Being InLove.

What is a Divine Human Being Inlove?
How do I access this idea, thought, experience, Being, Presence?
How do I support VateMare in basic consideration of this goal?

Sustainability of our Community: We begin our personal and communal journey with the examination of freewill as both a divine gift and divine responsibility.

What does this statement mean to you?
As a Divine Human Being Inlove, is there a boundary of how we hold the sacred.

Assignment to be complete before the meeting -
Please post your experience and speak to, Mind Body, Physical Body, Emotional Body as Precariousness of the Sanctuary of unfolding.

Take out your favorite pen and a precious piece of paper.
Choose one hour, this hour is to be your favorite hour of the day
IN your silence, take out your favorite pen and a precious piece of paper. One this piece of paper writes the most precious statement that you would love to hear from your beloved.
Place it on your altar for one night, dream with it.
Next day, take it an wrap it around a rock, bind it with a rubber band. Then place it in the center of the street. Do not touch it.
Record your feelings, your mental, physical and emotional experiences.
Write a paragraph on the importance of sanctuary. Consider what are the limitations and boundaries that we offer so that, what we love remains held in the sanctuary of care.
What are the dynamics and conflicts of making decisions to ask for order. How is making decisions and boundaries for protocol important to the group? How are they detrimental? Who is responsible to speak to the whole?
Write a prayer for that which we have broken and lost may find the ease of health and wellbeing, that in our own dilemmas of how to Be, we fall short within our frailty of creativity. And yet we are the creative and can only be that which we are..INlove
How do we as DivineHuman Beings Inlove, share the divine responsibility of Freewill?

Blessings,
JiMi

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